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Its wierd.

I have a potentially fatal kidney Illness. At the time of my diagnosis, I “Had 18 months”..It now being 3 years they were wrong obviously.

But is that a good thing? Did death simply not come for me? Did he forget?

My faith in modern medicine is gone. Seriously. First I “have 18 months”..then I dont die. Then they put me on this shit, doesnt even do anything. Freakin sugar-pill prescribing homos.

My faith in people is gone. Completely. I “broke” the news to a lot of people that I didnt have long to live. What did everyone say? “Sorry”…? No, Not “Sorry, your an amazing person, losing you will hurt me deeply”

My faith in Love is gone. My heart is dead. See Other blogs. You cant have faith in Love, what can you have faith in?

 

Looking back at this one, it doesnt seem so bad really. At the time I was only concerned with things I hadnt done. I’ve truly loved someone.That was my only goal before death. Dying doesnt scare me anymore, as I’m leaving no-one behind that cares, or anything I really treasure.

I wonder If I’ll have a casket or if they’ll just drop me in the hole?

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